So, you’ve decided to convert…

Don’t get me wrong. There’s nothing inherently wrong with faith. Quite to the contrary, studies have repeatedly shown that those who have a belief in a higher power do better in life. On the other hand, it’s not like you were ever an atheist. You’ve always professed some kind of agnostic (perhaps nondenominational? I never asked, or really cared to hear a long monologue on your belief system) aspiration, so this is presumably not a new phenomenon. What is a change is that you’ve decided to become an apostate. I’m really not one to talk about it, given that my primary obstacle with regards to conversion to Islam is a proscription against eating pork. It’s not that I’d make a particularly good Muslim either, but of everything out there, it makes the most sense to me.

A change of faith is something everybody goes through eventually. It is. A conversion to a neo-Pagan religion is not something to be taken lightly, however. Almost all of them are intrinsically linked to a belief in magic, and none that I can think of have a history longer than perhaps 150 years. The particular creed which you’ve chosen to ascribe to was almost certainly founded after the Second World War. That aside, every major ritual endemic to it is based upon the practice of witchcraft. I would hope that your professedly logical mind would find that ridiculous. It seems not to be the case. That aside, given the relative youth of the movement, I’d hope you’d research things a bit more. Given your professed aim to let your hypothetical children choose their own religion, one would think you’d do the same rather than simply ascribing that which the one religious person you know practices. Note, by the way, that it is possibly the least codified system of belief out there. No coherent dogma, large gaps between initiated Wiccans and eclectic (that’d be you and your ignominious tutor), and really scattered in general.

I suppose, though, that it goes along with your willful denial of everything else. Norse background? I’d think neo-Druidism or Asatru. Your last name is clearly Croatian (maybe Serbian), as are your features, but whatever. There are a number of neo-Pagan religions out there which do not revolve around the practice of magic or divination. I assume that because you believe the sole Wiccan you know is somehow psychic that it will be conferred upon you. It, of course, has nothing to do with the fact that she has two children, is much older, and lived out of state for an extended period of time in her adult life. Beyond which, divination in all its forms is inherently subjective. You read into it what you want to see, or what makes sense given your current (limited) knowledge base. It’s generally penultimate hindsight, but will give you very little in the way of useful guidance forward. If you’re content to keep stringing yourself along in the hope that a system of gaming which is not believed to have been used for fortune-telling prior to the 18th century can accurately predict your existence, so be it. Realize, though, that disdainful looks and rolled eyes shall follow you.

Your perpetual Messianic outlook on life belies a belief that you are both Saviour and martyr. Neither is the case. Make your life of it what you will. Fundamentally, empiricism is wrong. There is no ultimate truth or meaning to your life. You go through, day by day, and make of it what you will. There is no guide other than your own experiences, from which you should form some sort of moral guide. That is not to say, though, that you should walk through life with blinders on. You cannot analyze your problems away. The culmination of reality is simply to live. “If I can believe that I am rational and everyone else is rational then I have nothing to fear and no reason to feel anxious about being free,” right? Kierkegaard disagrees. The world is, on a whole, not rational or predictable (nor are you). So long as you what other people think of you and post attention-whore MySpace blogs which completely ignore any sort of objective truth, you allow yourself to be defined and controlled by them.

Some Bertrand Russell quotes which apply to you, and you should try to follow:

  • Contempt for happiness is usually contempt for other people’s happiness, and is an elegant disguise for hatred of the human race.
  • If all our happiness is bound up entirely in our personal circumstances it is difficult not to demand of life more than it has to give.
  • It seems to be the fate of idealists to obtain what they have struggled for in a form which destroys their ideals.
  • Man needs, for his happiness, not only the enjoyment of this or that, but hope and enterprise and change.
  • Men who are unhappy, like men who sleep badly, are always proud of the fact.
  • The degree of one’s emotions varies inversely with one’s knowledge of the facts.
  • The fact that an opinion has been widely held is no evidence whatever that it is not utterly absurd.
  • The secret to happiness is to face the fact that the world is horrible.
  • There is something feeble and a little contemptible about a man who cannot face the perils of life without the help of comfortable myths.
  • We have, in fact, two kinds of morality side by side: one which we preach but do not practice, and another which we practice but seldom preach.

Absolutely Pointless

No real reason for posting this, but Five-Factor tests are always fun, and I am, of course, curious as to the interpretation.

This report compares Ryan from the country USA to other adult men. (The name
used in this report is either a nickname chosen by the person taking the test, or, if a valid nickname was not chosen, a random nickname generated by the program.)


This report estimates the individual’s level on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model. The description of each one of the five broad domains is followed by a more detailed description of personality according to the six subdomains that comprise each domain.

A note on terminology. Personality traits describe, relative to other people, the frequency or intensity of a person’s feelings, thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the other. This report uses
expressions such as “extravert” or “high in extraversion” to describe someone who is likely to be seen by others as relatively extraverted. The computer program that generates this report classifies you as low, average, or high in a trait according to whether your score is approximately in the lowest 30%, middle 40%, or highest 30% of scores obtained by people of your sex and roughly your age. Your numerical scores are reported and graphed as percentile estimates. For
example, a score of “60″ means that your level on that trait is estimated to be higher than 60% of persons of your sex and age.

Please keep in mind that “low,” “average,” and “high” scores on a personality test are neither absolutely good nor bad. A particular level on any trait will probably be neutral or irrelevant for a great many activites, be helpful for accomplishing some things, and detrimental for accomplishing other things.As with any personality inventory, scores and descriptions can only approximate an individual’s actual personality. High and low score descriptions are usually accurate, but average scores close to the low or high boundaries might misclassify you as only average. On each set of six subdomain scales it is somewhat uncommon but certainly possible to score high in some of the subdomains and low in the others. In such cases more attention should be paid to the subdomain scores than to the broad domain score. Questions about the accuracy of your results are best resolved by showing your report to people who know you well.

Extraversion

Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience
positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say “Yes!” or “Let’s go!” to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.

Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.

Domain/Facet……….. Score
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EXTRAVERSION……………94

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..Friendliness………….88

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..Gregariousness………..99
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..Assertiveness…………56

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..Activity Level………..84

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..Excitement-Seeking…….77

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..Cheerfulness………….85

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Your score on Extraversion is high, indicating you are sociable,
outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of
the time.

Extraversion Facets

  • Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly
         demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly
         and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers
         on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is high.
  • Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others
         pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of
         crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is high.
  • Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take
         charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in
         groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the
         activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is average.
  • Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They
         move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and  more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is high.
  • Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored
         without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and
         bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are
         overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking.
         Your level of excitement-seeking is high.
  • Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not
         negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who
         score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings,
         including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as
         prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is
         high.


Agreeableness

Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and
social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are
therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise
their interests with others’. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of
human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and
trustworthy.

Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others.
They are generally unconcerned with others’ well-being, and therefore are
unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about
others’ motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and
uncooperative.

Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining
popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the
other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or
absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists,
critics, or soldiers.



Domain/Facet……….. Score
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AGREEABLENESS…………..33

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..Trust………………..17

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..Morality……………..13

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..Altruism……………..41

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..Cooperation…………..71

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..Modesty………………18

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..Sympathy……………..78

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Your level of Agreeableness is average, indicating some concern with others’
Needs, but, generally, unwillingness to sacrifice yourself for others.

Agreeableness Facets

  • Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are
         fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others
         as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of
         trust is low.
  • Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense
         or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank,
         and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in
         social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate
         to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it
         more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this
         scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled
         or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal
         the whole truth. Your level of morality is low.
  • Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely
         rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who
         are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form
         of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale
         do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like
         an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level
         of altruism is average.
  • Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike
         confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their
         own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this
         scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your
         level of compliance is high.
  • Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they
         are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from
         low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high
         self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to
         describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant
         by other people. Your level of modesty is low.
  • Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted
         and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily
         moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering.
         They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason.
         They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.
         Your level of tender-mindedness is high.


Conscientiousness


Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and
direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time
constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse
can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work,
acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals
can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.


Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways.
Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only
harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution
toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with
impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but
undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive
socializing that leads to being fired from one’s job, hurling an insult
that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using
pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one’s health.


Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a
person’s effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively
disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which
would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also
sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of
steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore
small, scattered, and inconsistent.


A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings
from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future
consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves
contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to
these goals, and persisting toward one’s goals in the face of
short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence
involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an
alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both
wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness
scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.


The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious
individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through
purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded
by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can
be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely
conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring.
Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack
of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will
experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called
stuffy.



Domain/Facet……….. Score
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CONSCIENTIOUSNESS……….10

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..Self-Efficacy…………51

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..Orderliness…………..13

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..Dutifulness…………..5

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..Achievement-Striving…..8

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..Self-Discipline……….40

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..Cautiousness………….9

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Your score on Conscientiousness is low, indicating you like to live for
the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless
and disorganized.

Conscientiousness Facets

  • Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one’s ability
         to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence
         (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success.
         Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not
         in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is average.
  • Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are
         well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They
         keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and
         scattered. Your level of orderliness is low.
  • Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person’s sense
         of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong
         sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and
         regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or
         even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is low.
  • Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this
         scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as
         successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have
         a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may
         be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content
         to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others
         as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is low.
  • Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call
         will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant
         tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline
         are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite
         distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor
         follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very
         much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is average.
  • Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to
         think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness
         scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do
         first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the
         probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level
         of cautiousness is low.


Neuroticism

Freud originally used the term neurosis
to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering,
and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life.
He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we
differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of
distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience
negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience
primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or
depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions.
People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond
emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their
reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to
interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as
hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to
persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often
in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a
neurotic’s ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope
effectively with stress.


At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism
are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to
be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative
feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers
experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions
is a component of the Extraversion domain.



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..Anxiety………………9

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..Anger………………..5

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..Depression……………17

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..Self-Consciousness…….4

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..Immoderation………….59

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..Vulnerability…………16

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Your score on Neuroticism is low, indicating that you are exceptionally
calm, composed and unflappable. You do not react with intense emotions,
even to situations that most people would describe as stressful.

Neuroticism Facets

  • Anxiety. The “fight-or-flight” system of the brain of anxious
         individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who
         are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen.
         They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful.
         They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally
         calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is low.
  • Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when
         things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly
         and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated.
         This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the
         person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual’s
         level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily.
         Your level of anger is low.
  • Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected,
         and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating
         activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings.
         Your level of depression is low.
  • Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive
         about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and
         ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They
         are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others
         will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but
         their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling
         prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken
         impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel
         nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is
         low.
  • Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and
         urges that they have have difficulty resisting. They tend to be
         oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long-
         term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible
         cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge.
         Your level of immoderation is average.
  • Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic,
         confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers
         feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed.
         Your level of vulnerability is low.


Openness to Experience

Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that
distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional
people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and
sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of
their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming
ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience;
consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or
Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness
to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly
related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.

Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking
in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on
the individual’s specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may
take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and
metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the
many visual or performing arts.

People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common
interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the
complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with
suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use.
Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and
resistant to change.

Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who
are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of
thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the
open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed
thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and
a number of service occupations.



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OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE…..37

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..Adventurousness……….85

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Your score on Openness to Experience is average, indicating you enjoy tradition
but are willing to try new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor
complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual.

Openness Facets

  • Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is
         often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a
         way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this
         scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination
         is low.
  • Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in
         art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic
         and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor
         talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are
         interest in, and appreciation of natural and
         artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in
         the arts. Your level of artistic interests is average.
  • Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access
         to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of
         their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your
         level of emotionality is low.
  • Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to
         try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different
         things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new
         route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel
         uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of
         adventurousness is high.
  • Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most
         important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on
         Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual
         ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles,
         and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either
         people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a
         waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence.
         Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although
         high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect
         individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect
         is high.
  • Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to
         challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most
         extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright
         hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity,
         chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and
         stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism
         and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly
         incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of
         liberalism is high.